Making peace, with myself.

This is a self-acceptance post that might be a long one or maybe just a few line of sentence. I don’t know. We’ll see.

So I just sit for my first paper for final today and it’s not good. I struggled answering most of the questions like I used to answer previous tests; confident and convinced. A few days back my oral test was also not really promising.

But yeah, here I am.. having my dark chocolate digestive biscuit with a can of fruit sparkling writing this as a reminder to myself, of how much this feeling, right now even after a very tiring midnight study and it’s not even half pass all of the subjects but I just want to write here that maybe sometimes we need that feeling of failing, falling.

And here I am, making peace with myself that not everything that you had done all of your best will turn as you expected.

Sometime you need to feel the struggle is it demands you feel it, that it exist and you need to do something, did your best and let the God handle the rest.

Hadi, be peace.

random.

here i am. in front of my laptop back after a full hectic busy week. for those who had read previous post might be like; "the heck this dude?."

yes, i decided to get rid of this blog and make a new one but for some reason the problem that i'm having with this blog solved.

here i am now writing in here again.

maybe i'm gonna post more, after exam. (i hope).

i guess.

moving on :)

hello reader!

so, straight to the point actually I was having trouble with my blog, which annoys me everytime so i decided to start a new one.

my new blog will be

whenhadiwrites.wordpress.com

feel free to visit there but in the meantime, i'm still working with all the technical stuff.

see ya!

Sinai-Dahab-Sharm Sheikh travelogue part 1

I just posted one of 600 ++ photos available of my vacation recently on instagram and the memories struck like really I felt like going to that moment back, again.

I’m glad that I’ve decided to join the trip this time, at the right moment and right people to be crazy with. It was almost 12 hours travel by bus but the place is so beautiful. I wish I have Polaroid with me. We went by bus at 2am and managed to reach St. Catherine and check in to the hotel at 3pm that day. We did a little warm up at Wadi Arbain where the rock that had been knocked by Moses which happened to produce 12 source of water still there.

Also I forgot to mention we visited the Bar Liev fort that belong to Israelite army but Egyptians Army manage to confiscate that fort in 6 days.

1 in the morning we went climbing and I have no words on that experience. Tiring but it’s worth it. Here’re my few tips:

1.       Good companies keep you motivated.

2.       Bring snickers, mars or energy bars.

3.       Limit your water consumption because the loo there is not the best.

4.       A good pair of shoes helps.

And the last place which is the top of the mountain is so amazing with the sun rise on point. I love that moment so much. I wish I have a better word for that moment but naah. I wish who read this will have an opportunity to visit there someday!

the place was somehow like a village and as i googled, it says that this is the place where prophet Elijah hide from Jezabel.

Way back from climbing the mountain, we managed to visit a few tomb of prophets, historical places before heading back and packing for Dahab.

it's a fake smile. i'm dying inside lol.

the tomb

I guess I’m gonna need part 2 for Dahab. Untill here,

Bye.

on TFIOS by John Green.

I just read the fault in our stars by John Green. Yes, I know I’m awfully late but watched the movie already. I know how to expect but the movie did move me in a way of watching a movie can that is why I liked to read. Reading gives you something more that you can grasp through it.

I don’t intend to write anything like a review or maybe it is but here the thing;

That book makes think lots of stuff. About death, dying, loosing someone you love. Something that at last all human will have a taste of it. Although that book portrays all of those in a different perspective than mine but I think the feeling (maybe not all) is mutual.

The uncertainty of all of that somehow so scary and caused anxiety but all I can say is, those feeling demand to be felt like John Green said pain is demanded to be felt and by that we can moves on.

Two days ago, my dad was admitted to HDU in Kedah Medical Center, due to problems in his lungs and that affected his heart. Alhamdulillah he’s okay now. The thing is, first; that is quite serious and I tell you, I cry a bit scared of anything that might happen. Secondly, I guess even thought I am aware of the fact that I’ve left my family few hundred miles  and might lose them in any time without able to be at their side but I’m still not ready for all of those probabilities. I am not and I don’t think anyone ever be ready.

Back to the book, I like the way the author convey the story. It is quite cliché in a way it is but still it is a good book for anyone who want to try young adult novels.

I guess this is it. Bye .