midnight rants.

A few nights ago I went to Hardees, having a late night supper as I’m quite hungry. I went there with Hadi, a good friend of mine who we share the same name.

The thing is I just felt quite relaxing and the vibe is so good that I can’t explain how satisfying it is. It’s been a long time that we don’t have a good time chit chatting about current life.

And I guess one of the reasons that make me wanted to have a good time with him is because we’re quite close to each other in high school but not now. I mean, we don’t go to the same place to classs even though in the same university. And the fact that he’s moving out soon from students house make me overthink of myself not having him around might be you know, awkward.

The place (Hardees) is warm, quiet and calm so the situation is quite engaging.

I guess I need to be more socially better as I might not have lots of time to spend with him, more.

It’s hard to trust anyone, here because trust is too expensive to give to worthless people, and I knew little who qualified to shares that.

Or am I too clingy too scared or whateves.

Ugh.

Enough for now.

Messy Marchy

aha.

asalamualaikum. at last i have courage to write over here.

i guess i'm not that really crazy busy but i do have certain work need to be settled, asap and i sometimes not capable of doing any of it.

and also i think i already flew my mind to Malaysia and it's not good. i still got 2nd semester exam to be faced; and it's  a few month that i still have sttle all my work here.

hurm, i quite struggling with the most of the subject this semester but yeah, i guess i need to figure something out.

and lately there're  a lot of weird dream and i guess it's just a dream.

life been good; but sometimes i just lost in the hustle and bustle of it. pheww.

the next chapter.

February is going to end and there are so many things that I want to write but I guess I’ll just stick to the important one.

The winter break is fine, I got lots of work here to do and also I learned so much.

I am a person who doesn’t like to depend to others; I like to do things on my own. It felt better than giving so much hope to a single ‘human’. Call me a loner, ya right but the thing is when once you try to get everybody involved there’s nobody shows up and from that I’m comfortable doing all alone.

Yes, it’s exhausting but I can’t help but doing that over and over.

Okeyh. Full stop here.

Oh ya, I would like to tribute a special thanks to Ust. Nazim who believe in me to be the mc for the DYTM Tuanku Raja Muda Perlis’ event. It is an amazing experience J

And also my two sifus, who guided with all of the protocols and etc..

Now it’s time to start focusing to classes, another mountain to be moved.

Winter break.

assalamualaikum and hi.

been a long time,
i do plan to update my blog but duhh, the temptation of not doing it far bigger that doing it. Plus, this holiday is quite a lot to do.

and this year Cairo International book fair is something. I spend over 1K on books alone. I even used my emergency money and i do regret it, now. hahahaha

even though i didn't plan a vacation but thanks to KPP they organized a short vacay so at least i have one. I don't know all the plan is not doing good this holiday but yeah, everything is fine. I guess i had enough.

ok, i belanjee satu. ahahahahahaaha

anyway kuliah already started and celah-celah ni His Highness is coming and there's a lot to do. a lot to bla bla blla.

well, everything is fine.

till then though, Bye.

post exam blues.

Phew.

This semester is done and now I’m having a floating-like feeling (because seriously, I don’t even plan anything special for this winter break while most of my friends already pack their bag, going somewhere). Well, actually yesterday is quite a mind-shattering day. I’ve never been so insecure about the exam except about this particular subject.

But I had done all the things that I could and if I failed (I wish I’m not) I accept it.  Well, everything happened for a reason.

God know best, even you don’t even know yourself.

 And I would like to start living this moment.